Monday, December 24, 2007

To all the avid readers of my entries - my greatest apologies! This semester had been a long and arduous journey; yet the time seemed so short. Everything seems to be passing by in a flash of light; moments that are only left to be reminisce. Moreover, it has been a stressful half-a-semester and I really did not have a chance to sit down and think about the past and future. School is NOTHING but reports, lectures, tutorials, etc. But at the end of the day, I have met people of all kinds, and from all walks of life.

In every individual lies an innate personality. This personality is probably what attracts that person as a Friend, a Good Friend, a Best Friend, or perhaps, even falling for that person. What I think is that personalities are like magnets - except that opposites may or may not attract. That is, personalities determines if people can get along with each other, and to what extent.
During the 2 weeks vacation, (although I have loads of projects and reports which I have not started) I was able to get a reasonably peaceful sleep at night. However, I would somehow, dream of this particular person. This happened not once nor twice, but multiple times. I seriously do not know why this happens. It is because of Memory or Dreams?

A dream is a hallucinatory experience involving a sequence of images, sounds, ideas, emotions, or other sensations usually during sleep. The events of dreams are often impossible, or unlikely to occur, in physical reality: they are also usually outside the control of the dreamer. The exception to this is known as lucid dreaming, in which dreamers realize that they are dreaming, and are sometimes capable of changing their dream environment and controlling various aspects of the dream. The dream environment is often much more realistic in a lucid dream, and the senses heightened.

I have this dream. I wished dreams could become reality. It seemed like eternal bliss even with a simple background setting and just the two of us at a beach. There seemed so many other people; so near but yet so far. All that resounded in our ears are just our voices and nature’s echoes.

The beautiful sunset, a calm sea with waves soothing the mental boy, those ever-so-fine and soft sand on the shore. Lying beside each other, listening to the resounding voices of nature; and as night falls, gazing at those oh-so-bright stars. What more can I ask for? A place far away from civilization, so blissful, where everything, every event seemed so innocent and pure.
All that – would be gone as soon as the sun rises and it’s time to get up and start the day. It is rarely that I could remember dreams so avidly with concise details. I must say, this is ONE dream, all the intricate details etched into my mind even after so long.

I must admit, I have liked this person; perhaps as a good friend. We seem to be able to talk about almost everything. But the thought of us being together never crossed my mind. My expectations aren’t high; but most of them are based on practicality.

Is this why I am having this recurring dream? Is it because I am not able to get her out of my mind? Is it the footprint she has left in my life?

Maybe, perhaps, this is. We met, that was Fate. We are Friends, which is Destiny. Our lives, with Fate but without Destiny… …