Monday, May 28, 2007

Long time...since I last logged into to Blogger. I did not even realised that the username and password has been merged with Google. Perhaps, this is life. All about transiency, impermanence, blah blah blah. Who knows? Blogger being bought over by Google? Anyway, that does not concern me, so?

Life is and was tough. So many reports, so many SCL matters. Really, I wasn't in any mood at all to pen my thoughts until, I SAW HER! =D Been so busy that I had little time to breathe. Therefore, I have decided. SLOW DOWN! "Take a good look at your surroundings, perhaps you'd just realise how beautiful this world and life is!" This entry, dated, I shall have many more in weeks! =D

No doubt, how beautiful this world is! Or should I rephrase, how coincidental things in this world can be! I have seen her not once, not twice, but a wholly FIVE times in a single day! OMG! Yes, I still do not know her name. At least, I know she is from School of Business Mgmt, Year 2 at that. Of course, needless to say, she was not any girl-next-door that I would assume. She was DEFINITELY a decendant from heaven, an angel's reincarnate, an acme of perfection and of all, a paragon of virtue!

Well, whatever will be, will be. The future's not for us to see and predict; it's for us to create and perfect. GOD! I am so filled with inspiration today! Read, think, penned. Here's it for this week!

Have u ever missed someone and felt terrible because u think tat he/she doesn't miss u?
Missing someone is a terrible but at the same time, sweet feeling. U will be sitting around wondering if u meant anything to him/her. Thinking if he/she ever cares about u. Rushing to the phone once it rings hoping that it's him/her. Looking out of the window hoping that he/she will surprise u by appearing downstairs. Sitting in front of the television but thinking of her missing the final episode of your favourite show. Laying on your bed, thinking of the last time u wen out together. Thinking of how nice it will be to sit under the stars again, talking about everything, your dreams, plans, future. Logging on to the internet hoping to seehim/her online. When u realise that he/she isn't online and did not return your page, u will start worrying if he/she is okay. Missing someone is a way of growing up, I guess. It exposes u to loneliness. It teaches u how to cope with being lonely and let u know that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness.

Sometimes it feels good to miss someone. U know that u really care and u indulge in the feeling of loving/caring for him/her. But missing someone and not knowing if he/she is feeling the same is terrible. U feel as if u are being left alone. So if u miss someone, tell him/her and let them know. At the same time, ask if they miss u? Don't let the feeling of missing someone become jealousy or paranoid. If u are the one being missed and u know it, let the other party know if u miss him/her too, tell them. Don't let them wait.

-nicholas, 28/05/2006