In order to write further, the only way was to indulge myself back in the memories of yester-years. Complementing it, would be reopening my personal story, "The Sentiments of Love". As I slowly read through from chapter 1, it all seemed like all that had happened was just yesterday. Everytime it happens; I have tried controlling my emotions, I really did. No doubt, I do have a reasonable high EQ, but does this have to happen everytime I reminisce about the past?
The past - It was indeed a beautiful tale; A fairytale that happened so magically to me then. It had superceded any expected, possible conformations that could take place during that period. It was just indescribable. Imagine that - From a personal confidante to whom someone I truly had feelings for. How would I have expected something so magical, so coincidental to have bore fruits of the future? Everytime I play that song, read that note; it would seemed like a thousand knives being pierced into my heart! That feeling is still so adamant of leaving my memory...
Life is just full of impermanence, so full of uncertainties. I promised myself not to live in the shadow of the past; have I done so?